**Give & Receive**

Hello again all my long lost blogging friends. I now have access to the internet so I can share all the fun of blogging together with you again.
I have sooooo much catching up to do!!
Looks like so many things have changed for some of you also....you just never know what paths life will take you on.
I have had some tough times in my life but I can honestly say that I truly know what it is to hit rock bottom, what its like to have despair so deep that it aches in your bones.
I am not at liberty to discuss details but all I will say is.....I MISS MY BOYS.....
They are my heart and soul and they are the first thought I have when I wake up and the last thought I have as I fall asleep. The next time you make your children dinner or wash their dirty clothes be  GRATEFUL.
I am trying hard not to be bitter.
I am trying hard to accept those people that have such distorted thoughts.
I am trying hard to understand that sometimes when people truly HATE themselves they blame and therefore hate other people.
Sometimes people will only see or believe what makes them feel less guilt.
You can accept what is and what happens from your actions or hold on to it so tightly it changes who you are....or maybe brings who you truly are to the surface.
THE SOUL KNOWS THE TRUTH..........it gives birth to bitterness.
YOU CANNOT TAKE SOMETHING AWAY THAT IS NOT WANTED
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I've spent many hours crying,  and trying to heal the woman inside of me.
I've learned many things about myself and who I am.
I've learned to try to let go of my own self doubt....to like myself if only a little bit a day at a time.
I've learned to feel worthy of love.
Most importantly I've learned that love heals all.
Love understands, accepts,earns trust, and feeds not only the heart but the soul.
Love gives hope......
I HAVE love
I GIVE love
Give and receive..... give and receive.
Words worth repeating.
It is never too late to believe.....no matter what you think you may already know to be true.
Love can be seen in the eyes of the ones you love.
It's a gift to see your own reflection in those eyes.....to SEE what they see.
Its pure, it's simple, it's empowering.
There are many uphill roads I know I will have to climb, many battles to dress my heart for.
But I've been given the greatest gift which will bring everything else together.
I'm giving love that is fully embraced and given back to me.
I believe and have faith.
I finally understand.

***It's all about cinnamon rolls and paper coffee cups***

Blessings my friends, it's good to be back
                     ~Kriss~