~*Changes*~

Good morning!! So good to be back.
My mother in laws funeral was quite an emotional upheaval, amazing what families can sometimes do to your heartstrings. People make assumptions without really know what is going on and it can be unfortunate when that happens.
We were unable to make the viewing for her and it tore my husbands heart out. He had quite possibly the hardest decision of his life to make and as he couldn't be in two places at one time we had to miss it. We however drove all night to get to the actual funeral and almost missed being able to see her as they were going to close the casket that night to take her to the church in the morning and would not reopen it. Thank God for my sister in law that she begged them to wait for us and set up a time in the morning for us to go in alone and say our goodbyes.
With everything else that has been going on in our lives it nearly tore my husband apart, he was barely able to make it to the casket and had to sit down and completely lost it. I felt so completely helpless. We were emotionally, spiritually and physically exhausted from dealing with our day to day battles and for him to let her go....especially with so much unfinished business in his heart and so many hurt feelings it was beyond difficult.
Unfortunately his family did not understand out missing the viewing and probably never will. I tried to reach out to a couple of people for a small explanation and they would not speak to me. Other assumptions I think had been made. Sad, families are supposed to pull together at times like this. If we had in any way been asked about the timing of the funeral seeing how we were coming from out of town this could have all have been avoided. My husband is a broken man right now...but I will get him on his feet.
Now we move on and refocus on our family and keep trying to fix what we can and hope and pray in the days to come for a good outcome with our son and the dilemma he is in. I wish I had the magic to just make it all go away but all I can be is strong for him. I know this all sounds so confusing but I cannot get into the details...just again ask that maybe you keep his safety in your prayers.
As for my changes after a year and a half of being laid off I was given an incredible job offer. A life changing job offer. Good luck has not been in our favor for so long that I have to keep pinching myself to make sure that I am awake and it's real. I have a final interview I will travel to New York for on Friday and will be given my start date and cross the T's and dot the I's. I will be taking a position as an assistant manager for a department in Big Lots. Totally unexpected and totally amazing...
With this job brings the knowledge and security that I will never have a utility shut off again or never worry what I will feed my family for dinner. It's been a long year.
As soon as we are completely on our feet the first thing I will do is make a huge donation to the food pantry and that will be an ongoing monthly gift. I truly encourage all of you to give if you can. Just when you think that things can't happen to you it can all fall apart in the blink of an eye...hunger for your children is the most painful thing to see. With this job for me, NEVER again.
I've missed you all so much and am anxious to get all caught up with you and see what's been going on. I will still continue working on my designs...my heart lives to create.
Hope you've all been well...off to check in on all of you!!
~Kriss~