~*Goodbye Jill*~

The sun is shining this morning, the birds are singing, the coffee is brewed in my kitchen and the normal day to day things are there....dishes to do, laundry to wash, bills to worry about, that room I really need to finish, project after project calling my name. It all sounds normal, boring and even exhausting right?
It has become clear to me that they are all a blessing. I am blessed everyday by the sometimes overwhelming worries and tasks of just getting out of bed...we all are. I am thankful for every dirty dish because it means that I have fed someone I love, every load of laundry that I wash and fold because it was worn and will be worn again, the room that I dream of decorating because I am here to decide what I want to do with it...and does it really matter that I don't have enough money to go out and buy everything I want? No, there's always tomorrow. Thankful that I worry about how to pay those bills...because my name or my husbands is on the envelope waiting for us to open it and thankful for all those projects because it means that I am blessed by capable hands that will in time get to them. My cup of coffee tastes wonderful this morning too...one of my favorite things...I will savor the next cup on my front porch.
Today my sweet, dear friend will be buried. There will be no more dirty dishes.
Her funeral is at 10:00 this morning and I unfortunately can't be there. We are a one car family and this is my husbands Saturday to work. I am so sad to not be able to be there for the final passage but I know she understands....I said my good byes last night.
Her sudden passing was caused by an unknown heart condition....the kind you hear about that will take an athlete down suddenly. No way to know, it was just a matter of time. It was a normal Saturday night for them, Jeff was outside cooking dinner on the grill while the kids played in the yard and he told them to go in and wash their hands and let her know that dinner was almost ready. Lindsey came running back outside telling him that Mommy was on the floor and wouldn't get up. Her body held on until Monday...her spirit will be here forever.
Today I dedicate to Jill....today will be about living life to the fullest, appreciating all of the small and usually overlooked things. I can't focus on the loss today....she wouldn't want that. Today I will celebrate. I'll have to end this post right now....I can smell the coffee in the kitchen ready to fill my cup for the second time...I am Blessed.
Rejoice in and Love every moment today ~Kriss~